Okay, my life officially sucks, big time. hates me, due to several effects that happened in this stupendous (meaning stupid) year. I probably lost her as a friend because of this, and the worst thing? I don’t have the guts to make it up to her. She found out yesterday at 7th hour which is a time where after we head in separate ways. I didn’t talk to her on the phone, not this morning…I feel awful and frankly depressed and stressed.

So, what did I do that caused the fragile friendship to shatter? Losing a Yu-gi-oh card, a special one: Cyber End Dragon with a Thousand dragon on the back. Not like she could use it but still, a rare card in mint condition. I don’t feel like killing myself over a card so I’m trying to think of making it up. But what do I do?

I owe her too from the day before. There was a tournament at the card shop and there were cards of Yu-gi-oh cards I wanted. She offered to buy some and trade for the others. I got what I needed, but ask her how much she gave away. She’d say I couldn’t count that high. I made a deck of Hiita, Eria, Aussa and Wynn. Now I’m sunk on this.

She gave me the card as a thing for my brother to hold on to because of an earlier deal she made. I tried to give it to him, but he is the stupidest person I have ever known and pretty much yelled at me to get out of the classroom (it was in the morning before school started, he such a bastard around his other friends). I hate him and getting me in this position. I don’t blame myself exactly, and here are my reasons.

shouldn’t give me a rare and valuable card. I didn’t make a deal with her and because of her laziness I was given the card, I refused but she said give it to my brother. Another is that she had a beef with my brother, she should’ve given it to him and maybe he wouldn’t turn it away. Face to face value is better, for him at least. And at last, I LOSE STUFF, ALL THE TIME. WHY SHE NEVER THOUGHT OF THIS BEFORE IS BEYOND ME.

My brother shouldn’t have turned the stupid card away. He said he wanted something in sure of the deal. If he wanted it so bad then he should have gone to her. Because of his behavior around his friends.

And most of all, I shouldn’t be in the middle of this deal. Their deal, their responsibility. But that doesn’t mean I don’t feel bad, my fault for letting this happen and not stand up to myself. I hate myself for doing that.

What is probably going to happen is that she wants some of my rare Yu-gi-oh cards. I probably won’t let that happen. BUT, I may try to make it some other way, that card my be valuable, but it’s not something to cry over…or kill…